eck scary x_x sorry about friend, supergrom
i know i;ve been VERY lucky. it was one of those once-in-a-life-time thing where it just felt like someone was telling me how fragile human life is. it gave me plenty of time to think over life and all that good stuff.
and no, i dont remember ANYTHING relly. what relly sucked was that it happened on the monday. the first day i was there. my mom had one of them business conferences in somehwere in utah (i dont evn remember) and i tagged along so i can ski during the day. somehow, one of the ski ranger ppl found me all bloodied up and stuff x_x. supposedly they flew me on helicopter all the way to salt lake city because i would not have survived otherwise. i get little (scary) flashbacks of being covered in blood, saying "omg im gonna die" but that;s about it. nothing more. dont even want to know.
but it was cool when the first time i gained my conscience i got to ask the nurse "who am i, why am i strapped to the bed?"
it sucked when my mom found whole big stash in my backpack. she purposely didnt tell me about it right up to teh point we were on the plane, so i wouldn't have a way to ignore her little speech.
anyway, they put me on patches because i couldnt smoke and i was under like heavy supervision so i wouldnt drink. my bones still havent fully recuperated and i have scar behind my right ear where it was almost ripped off. it hurt like #### when they removed the stitches. oh and i have a cool scar to my right side where the chest tube went. there used to be a hole there ^_^
and no, if i were suicidal i would have killed myself long time ago. and not by skiing. tee hee hee.
one positive thign that came out of all this was i had something neat to write about for my college essays. i was all like "the fragility of human life" bla bla bs bs bs. and aparently, it worked for the most.
but seriously, if you go skiing, please be careful. dont do dumb things. i dont exactly know what i had been doing, but it probably had somethign to do with what my mom found in my backpack. just dont.