things haven't been to great for me lately, and i finally see some things improving. My parents finally let me drive my car alone. the chick i like instead of saying thank you when i gave her a little something said "I love you". But when I arrived home today i see 2 sets of flowers in vase's each with a card, one to me and one to my sister. and states that my pet (which is a reason i'm stumped about the card for my sis) died today (October 28, 2003). What makes me feel worse is that i passed right by him when i was hurring to my car in the morning, i don't even know if he was dead yet and other things make me feel bad too... like i found that his water container was empty, did he die of thirst (i don't know if it was empty for over a day or so), it seemed he had slowly been eating less but i'm not sure about that, he seemed to be going #2 less (probably because he didn't eat as much), his coat hadn't evened out since his last shedding, he would get dierriea on and off, but he hasn't in awhile. Could the water bugs that kept going in his food passed an illness to him. all of these things seemed kind of minor then, and it's not like my parents really cared about him since we got him, they never really saw checkups and such necssary and i can't afford vet visits. maybe thats also why right now i feel a kind of resentment toward my immediate family. another thing that i confess to is i wasn't a good master at first, and was kind of abusive, but i was stupid and immature and i changed and for at least 5 years he hasn't been abused, but his first 2 years of his life with his first owners they did abuse him. I don't know if he died peacefully of old age (8-9 years old, and i don't know how old they tend to get), or he died a slow painful death. I certainly feel very bad about all this not knowing exactly what happend, my parents took him away before i even saw him dead, the last i saw him was last night alive and seemingly well. I will miss my lil friend. Rest in Peace my ol' pal Thumper... 🙁 ;_;