I do not have anything constructive to say, rather some thoughts I am thinking about right now and please take no offense to my crazy views:
I am saddened by this news and use the cliche of "I am sorry."
"100 years as sheep or a day as a lion?" I really don't know how to respond to this proverb. I must say that some people take life for granted and even more never realize that they do.
"To be or not to be?"
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to,â'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die,âto sleep;â
To sleep: perchance to dream:âay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despis'd love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office, and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would these fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,â
The undiscover'd country, from whose bourn
No traveller returns,âpuzzles the will,
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought;
And enterprises of great pith and moment,
With this regard, their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.
Hamlet argues that death will be the end of all suffering and uncertainty. It is unavoidable.
Again, I am sorry with the position you are in. I do suggest a great author about this subject. Ram Dass and his books "Still Here: Embracing Aging, Changing, and Dying."
I don't know if you are in pain right now, but the people around you are there for you. There are those that lose hope and give up at life entirely. You have plenty to live for. Never lose hope